Friday

I'm just so glad it's Friday.

The weekend ((FREE TIME)) sounds delightful.

No, we don't have big fun plans...

That's what I'm excited about : )

worry

i'm still worried. it's driving me nuts. not about anything in particular, just about everything! ugh!

i got an email today about barack obama... and how he is going to try to turn america into an islamic country. is this true? i hadn't heard anything like this until i read this email. of course, now i'm worried. i'm not going to be muslim. no way.

i love Jesus. with all my heart.

any opinions?

Spring

Easter means spring... spring is here... but it's still cold. BOO. I'm ready for some WARM weather!




I didn't get any pictures of all of us in our "Easter Outfits". Brycen looked so grown up and handsome.... I thought about making him put it back on so I could get a picture... but it was already in the dirty laundry! : )

This week is busy & I'm tired.

Sunday at church the preacher talked about how worry is a sin... I used to worry a lot, and I still do about some things, but I was doing SO much better about leaving things w/ the Lord. Until he preached that sermon. Now it seems all I can do is worry. It is so frustrating. I hate feeling worried all the time, especially about things I have no control over!

Tonight I am going w/ my best friend to Evansville, to get fitted for my bridesmaid dress for her wedding. That will be fun (and expensive!). I think she picked the most expensive dresses she could find! Oh well, I love her anyway.

Only 6 more weeks of class. Whoo hoo! I am sooo looking forward to summer.

Mya Faith

Mya Faith Raber, 7lbs 4oz, 20 in. long, sweet as can be!















Aunt Chelsa & Mya : ) <3 her sooo much!


Mya Faith decided she didn't want to wait until Friday to come into the world! She arrived last night about 7:30 pm. My poor sister in law was in labor since the night before, it was quite the long night and day... and evening! When she got to the hospital she was no longer breach, she got to have her naturally instead of having a c-section. She was quite stubborn though and had the cord around her neck, which made for a long day of watching a heart monitor go off with every other contraction! The dr. was able to untangle the cord as she came out and she is perfectly healthy! And ohhh so adorable! Her big brother Jayce and big sister Hailey love her so much! Brycen is just absolutly smitten with her! What a blessing!

back home...

Well we have arrived home from Fla... safe and sound, but COLD! I was ready to be at home in my own bed, but not ready to leave the Sunshine State, the warmth, the beach, or Ryan's extended family! We had such a wonderful time down there. It was a reprieve that we greatly needed and have benefited from immensely!

Now, it's back to work... and did I mention it's cold?

My sister in law found out that Baby Girl is breach, she now has a scheduled c-section for next Friday, the 21st. Good Friday! It will definitely be a good Friday! I can't wait to meet my new little niece! I truly am very excited! It is still hard though... I don't want to say I'm jealous, that's not really what it feels like... my heart is just yearning to be pregnant... to feel a baby in my arms again. I'm hoping having a new niece will help to succumb some of that yearning, instead of making it worse.

I will post pictures of Fla. soon!

tomorrow!

tomorrow is our day! i can't wait to leave, i'm counting the hours!
... hopefully i'll get packed ... : ) at least the swim suits/trunks! haha



these are pictures of brycen last year in fla... almost exactly a year ago actually... i can't believe how much he has grown!

Clean...

Yesterday I got home an hour early... I didn't realize what I could get done in an hour! Every since I miscarried I have done the minimal around the house. I've kept up the laundry and picked up messes, but that's about it. It has also drove me insane that I had no energy to do anything else. So yesterday with my extra hour before Ryan & Brycen got home, I cleaned. I cleaned like a banshee really. I dusted, I vacummed, I swept the hard wood and tile floors, and I mopped those. I scrubbed the kitchen sink, I cleaned the bathrooms, and I decluttered Brycen's toy room. (okay the bathrooms and decluttering the toy room, piled over into the time after Ryan had picked up Brycen and came home!) But still! I was so glad I got all this done. I also got Brycen's summer clothes washed up (since we're leaving in TWO days for the beach!). Then I still had the energy to make supper. (just spaghetti and breaksticks, but so what, I cooked it!). Today is two weeks since I started spotting. It feels like a life time ago some moments, but at others it feels like yesterday. I'm still struggling, but I'm living. I'm making the most of all the time I have with Brycen, and trying to see the joy in what he sees the joy in! He's so excited about leaving for Fla. we have been counting down the number of times we have to sleep until we can leave! And if I want to be honest, I'm just about as excited as he is! Now for the packing.... um haven't even started! I made a list last night of everything (i think i have everything on the list?) that we need to pack... But as for starting to pack.... um no. I have ZERO, NADA, NOTHING packed... that's stressing me out a little bit : ) But then again, I'm too excited to care too much... I know it will get done... probably Friday... yes, I know that's the day we leave, but I think I'm going to take the day off, or at least half day! Anyway, I know this post is pretty pointless... actually all of mine are, but just wanted to post something!