My Papaw

I just wanted to ask everyone to pray for my grandpa if they get a chance! Yesterday he was feeling really (like couldn't walk 3 steps) weak and like he was going to pass out. My grandma called my mom and asked her to come home and go w/ them to Evansville to the ER. They didn't know what it was, but they knew something was wrong. He just spent a week in the hospital a few weeks ago and had been feeling much better. I waited, not so patiently, all afternoon for a call from my mom. She finally did call and tell me that he is losing blood. He had to have a blood transfusion. They couldn't pinpoint where the bleeding was coming from at that point. Today they are doing a colonscopy b/c his stool did test positive for traces of blood. His cancer did originally start in his colon (back in 2004) this is when he had surgery to remove it. My heart is hurting for my Papaw. I don't know exactly how to explain what I feel. I'm not "worried" about him in the sense of his soul, I know when he passes away he's going to Heaven b/c he's accepted Jesus' saving grace. He doesn't talk about his feelings much, and I guess this is what worries me... is that he's scared or worried or upset. These should probably be the least of my concerns for him, but... I can't help myself.

this is the last picture of my papaw i have before we found out he had cancer (he was being silly at los bravos in jasper) that's a napkin on his head! he can always make me smile... i think this will forever be my favorite picture of him, b/c it's before our lives changed in our immediate family, w/ that ugly word, cancer...

this picture is blury for some reason, but it's my papaw and brycen... he is def. one of B's favorites... and man, i thought my papaw loved me a lot, he is obsessive about Brycen :)

A weekend w/out Daddy :(

Friday night we went to my cousin's 40th Surprise Birthday Party. It was so funny and a good time, nice to see some faces I don't see too often. Brycen had a fun time too. Ryan stayed at home b/c he had to be gone the rest of the weekend. My mom went with us. Afterwards, Brycen decided he wanted to stay all night over at my parents. He was determined and of course my mom was all for it... so I had to say okay! I went home then & Ryan was just hanging out. We didn't do anything, just watched some TV, it was weird being home all by ourselves!

Our Dogs, Aggie and Izzie (Aggie is the one I ran over and the one sitting up, you can see she is just fine now, thankfully!)

Brycen loading his hummer up w/ rocks :)


Getting some more rocks, he had the thing so loaded down it would barely go!

Saturday morning Ryan left bright and early (like 5am!) to go to Indy for his friend Nut's (yes, that's what they call him) bachelor party. They all went golfing and then paintballing and had a fish fry. I went and picked up B around 9am and we headed to Abbie's yard sale (got a few things for the baby and a couple things for B too!). Then we went to Wal-Mart, have I said before that I DREAD Wal-Mart?? Well I do! lol. Anyway, we got our stuff and got out of there. Brycen wanted McDonald's for lunch so we went through the drive thru and then I got Taco Bell and we took our food home to eat it! It was weird knowing Ryan wasn't going to be home until the next day. Brycen kept saying "It's just me and you mommy." It was so sad! lol. Ryan goes on lots of hunting and fishing trips over long weekends and it's never bothered B to stay home w/ mommy, but this time he was so sad! I think b/c he is older now and realized he wouldn't be seeing his daddy until the next day, and lately Ryan and Brycen have become super close and play together and "work" together outside all the time. B called and left Ryan a voicemail and Ryan said it made him want to come home! lol. Those two were a mess! I think Ryan really did have fun up there though! He could barely walk when he got home yesterday b/c he was so sore from playing paintball. He was like, "umm maybe I'm more out of shape than what I thought." haha! Anyway, after B & I ate lunch on Saturday we went to Jasper to see my friend Megan's new baby, Aaron! He is adorable and has a ton of hair! Brycen loved holding him, and has now decided it would be okay to have a boy baby, "if it's like Aaron." Saturday evening we didn't do much, played outside, took baths, read books, and watched a movie. Brycen hadn't had a nap so he fell asleep about 8:30pm. I watched Legally Blonde on TV. lol... Pathetic I know, but that movie always makes me laugh.

Brycen acting silly at the hospital while visiting Baby Aaron. (grown men were telling him to do this!)


Holding Baby Aaron Douglas Gadberry. He was 7lbs 8oz and 20 inches long! He has adorable soft dark hair! He is precious!

Yesterday Ryan got home and we all played outside most of the day, took naps, and then went to my parents for a cookout last night w/ some family! It was a pretty relaxing weekend and I'm hoping to have more like them! I get tired of running running running and feel like I miss out on quality time w/ my hubby and baby boy!

Baby Stuff

So I started thinking about everything we have to get for the baby... we got rid of a lot of stuff after Brycen b/c we didn't know how long it would be until we had another one... and we gave a lot of stuff away... and wow, I forgot how much stuff you NEED ;) for a baby! I started making a list and now I'm stressed! lol. Ryan thinks I'm nuts, but really March is going to be here before you know it, especially if the rest of the months go as fast as September has! What were your MUST HAVES for baby?!

15 wks & 2 days

I know I've been getting worse and worse about posting belly pics... Here is one Ryan took last night, I was 15 wks and 2 days yesterday. Everything seems to be going really good. I have started feeling the baby A LOT in the past 2 or 3 days! Right now it feels so neat, I know it's so different to the kicks and jabs I'm going to be feeling in a few months :) Brycen loves to feel the baby move around and he is ALWAYS talking to my belly & hugging and kissing on "the baby." The other day he acted like he was looking in my belly button and he said "i see the baby!!" It was too cute! I love his imagination and I hope he stays this excited! He informed me yesterday on the way to take him to Pre-School that they were going to cut my belly off when I had the baby! I was curious what he was thinking about this and asked him how they would get it back on, and he said "they will tape it back on!" ;) too cute! Two of his friends at pre-school are getting babies in the next couple months, so I'm sure their conversations are quite interesting to hear!

Thinking...Hoping...Helping?

I find that as the date draws nearer to what would of been my due date of the pregnancy that we lost, I'm thinking, wondering, about that baby... would it have been a boy? or a girl? Crazy & loud like Brycen, or a quiet child? Blonde hair and blue eyes like our sweet boy, or something completely different? I know that these things weren't meant for me to know and that God had a completely different plan for that sweet baby and for our family. Now, don't get me wrong, I'm VERY happy to be pregnant, and I'm completely in love w/ this baby already, but I can't help but still feel the loss of our other baby as well. I have no idea if this is "normal", but it feels pretty normal to me so I just try and go with it. I have prayed that God could maybe use me... use something that I learned through our loss or feelings I had, to help someone... anyone... I had a "friend" Kristen, a Godly woman, who helped me so much... whether she knows it or not, her words helped me in a tremendous way. Anyway, I prayed that I could minister to someone, be a comfort, or a help, just to let them know that things would be okay, and that God would use me for His purpose in this. Last week I had not just one, but two girls going through similar situations that wanted to talk. I can only pray that I used the words God gave me to be of some help to these two girls.

homecoming pics and other weekend stuff...

Uncle Joe & Brycen (Brycen lovessss him so much!)

Joseph, Brycen, and Brooke (our cousin)

My bubby & I (i know, he's super tall and i'm super short!)

Gracie and Brycen

Brycen w/ the spiderman motorcycle he got after homecoming for doing a good job! :) (yah, we bribed him, give me a break!)

Friday night Brycen was in homecoming (along w/ my brother and two cousins!). I'm glad that it is over! Everyone looked really good and it went pretty smoothly! We stayed until half-time and then Brycen needed a breathing treatment so we had to go! Poor boy was devasted and didn't want to leave! He loved watching the game... and playing there. It was good to see some friends at the game! Our super close family friends Mel & Olivia came up from KY to see Brycen and Joe in homecoming. It was so sweet & good to see them!

Saturday I went went went from the time I got up until bedtime! We got a lot of stuff done around the house... Ryan got the garage door painted (FINALLY!) to match the shutters & front door... must of done wonders b/c two people called about the house yesterday! lol. It does look really good and I know he'd been dreading that task, so we're both glad it's done now! I am about to paint our family room and laundry room so I got all the pictures and stuff taken down off the walls on Saturday. The people before us were nail and screw happy so there is a lot of places Ryan is going to have to fill w/ putty before I can paint! (I hate painting and am dreading ths job, but need to get it done so I can fix Brycen a place for his toys and start working on the baby room, which is now his toy room!). Anyway- I also invited my parents, grandparents and two of my grandpa's brothers and their wives over for supper. We had a pretty big supper & I was worn out, but it was fun! After everyone left I still had to make a dessert for Sunday to take over to our friends for lunch! I burnt myself on the darn oven too! I got everything done and in bed! I think I was asleep in about 2 seconds!



Yesterday we went to church and then over to Rich & Melissa's for lunch. Shawn & Audrey and
Greg and Leila were there too. After lunch the guys went fishing. We were so tired and we were hoping the kids would take a nap, but Brycen & Isaac had other ideas! :) They had a lot of fun playing though. When Ryan got back from fishing we went ahead home. Brycen was out cold in about 1 minute! We got home and all took naps before we went to my parents for supper. Next weekend is going to be more relaxed for me b/c Ryan is busy w/ bachelor stuff for a friend's wedding that he is in. I'm looking forward to the much needed break from busyness and the extra quality time w/ Brycen!

trying to get them to take a nap :)

weekend & dr's appt.

Friday I took off work at noon & went home and packed up mine and Brycen's stuff. We met my mom at her house at 3:00pm and left to go up north for my cousin's wedding. Ryan couldn't go b/c his Grandma's sale was going on and he needed to help & wanted to see all his family (hey, i did too, but someone had to take B to the wedding!). Anyway, the 3 hour trip up there took forever between Brycen and myself, someone was always hungry! lol, my poor mom! We finally got up there and had the dress rehersal & the dinner. Then we went to our hotel room & Brycen got some swimming in. It was late, but we had promised him he could! We didn't get to bed until really late, and I was exhausted!


Saturday morning we had to be up bright and early to go to my brother's cross country invitational that was also up north. It was only about 30 min. away from where we were staying so it worked out really well! He got sixth place out of seventy runners! I was so proud of him, I cried... yah, he was embarrassed :) The meet was at an elem. school so Brycen had fun playing on the outside toys all morning! After his meet we went and got lunch and then went and got ready for the wedding. Brycen had to be there early so we were pretty rushed. The wedding was short & sweet and afterward Brycen had to stay for pictures. He was the ring bear & he made it up the aisle to the second row & then seen my mom and dove right in the aisle :) Oh well, at least he made it most of the way up! After the wedding we went to the reception & Brycen had a blast playing w/ little cousins he doesn't see too often. We didn't make it home until late Saturday night and we were both beat!

Brycen playing after Uncle Joe got finished running

Almost finished! I was sooo proud of him!

Brycen w/the bear he carried

My cousin's little boy, Logan and me!

Sunday we slept in (bad kids I know!). And then we had no power all day. Brycen and I did puzzles & played about 50 games of CandyLand! :) We went to my parents for supper b/c they did have power. Luckily ours game back on about 8:30pm so we didn't have to worry about getting ready in the dark Monday morning, thankfully! I needed another day to recooperate from the weekend, Monday morning came too fast!


Monday night Ryan picked up all the limbs in our yard and mowed. Brycen and I went to Wal-Mart and to get groceries while Ryan was mowing. Brycen just HAD to help pick up sticks & limbs, he thought that was so fun! haha.


Tuesday evening we went to Montgomery for our friend Melissa's suprise birthday party! The look on her face was priceless! She thought Ryan and I were coming to help them clean up their yard and pick up limbs and stuff b/c she and I had been texting through out the day and that's what she said they were doing all evening for her birthday! It was so fun surprising her! Plus, Brycen was so excited to get to play w/ Isaac all evening! I didn't get but one picture b/c my batteries went dead (go figure, don't they always?!). We didn't get home until late and I was so tired again, seems to be my theme!


Yesterday was my day off and I got all my cleaning and most of the laundry done in the morning & then had to go to Evansville for my dr's appt. I am now 14 wks and 3 days (as of today). I had gained 2 lbs as of yesterday, feels more like twenty and the heartrate was 165. Baby seems to be doing well and I'm doing good too (besides all this being tired all the time!). I go back on October 14th and we'll find out if it's a boy/girl (well, if he/she decides to cooperate!). I kind of thought it would be fun to do a poll and see how many people think I'm having a boy and how many think I'm having a girl, but I can't figure out how to do the poll thing, so just leave me a comment if you want to w/ what you think we're having! Ryan and Brycen are still set on a girl, and I'm still set on thinking it's a boy! I guess we'll see (hopefully) in a little less then 4 weeks! I'm sure it will fly by. Last night Brycen had practice for homecoming, he is the little boy that is carrying the crown. It's pretty neat b/c he has two cousins and his Uncle Jos' (my brother) in it as well! I just hope he makes it out on the field, last night was interesting to get him out there... I guess we'll see how it goes! Anyway- I think that catches you all up on our lives :)