weekend

I don't have anything to exciting... but I really want to do better about staying updated like I used to. Friday evening we went to my Granny's viewing all evening. It was a pleasant time, visiting w/ family who lives far away or we don't get to see often. Granny was ready to go... we will miss her, but we rejoice for her more than anything. My Papaw Shoultz (her husband) died in 2003, the spring of my junior year. We know she has really been ready to join him since that time. She looked just like herself laying there. It did sadden me a bit that Brycen didn't really know her. When her mind was still with her he was just a tiny baby and after that the alzehimers took over. But just like we talk about my Great Grandma Noland that passed away when B was only 2 months old, we will now talk about Granny Shoultz being in Heaven. His understanding of Heaven and death really just blows me away. He has had his fair share this year... more than any 4 year old really should, but he has taken it in stride. Lots of questions along the way, but we do our best to answer them. His faith makes me yearn to have that sort of faith. He talks almost every day about dying and going to Heaven to be with Andon. I think this sort of freaks some people out, but I just explain to him that we will die when God decides our time is up... and until then we still have work to do, telling people about Jesus so they can go to Heaven too. He really does seem to get that and I'm so glad. He's such a sweet little boy. I wish I could of protected him more from all this death that is around him, but it is just his reality and it has helped to shape his faith even more. I know he has concerns about the baby in my belly dying too. I can't really blame him- it's all he knows right now... he knew about my miscarriage and of course about Andon. He prays for the baby every night. I really hope God chooses for this baby come home to live with us and live a long happy life. Brycen is so compassionate and he will make a great big brother. Although at this point he won't even discuss the fact that the baby could be a girl... :) I guess I've gotten a little off course, didn't really have plans of talking about all this death... was just going to update on our weekend a bit.

Yesterday we got up and went to the funeral home for the funeral. The preacher was a little long winded and the kids got a little restless, but it was a nice service. Granny hadn't been able to go to church, but this preacher had been going to visit her in the nursing home. He said he could tell she loved it when he read scripture to her and also he has old gospel hymns on his phone and he would play those for her. It warms my heart to know that even when she didn't know much else about what was going on around her, she still knew Jesus' love for her. I really hope the service touched some of my family, some that still need a relationship with our Savior. After the service we went to the cemetary. Her and Papaw Shoultz are buried side by side now in this quaint cemetary in the middle of no where! It's peaceful and pretty. Brycen has a thing for looking at the "stones" as he calls the headstones. He wants to know who is on them... after the service family was talking and we were walking around looking at them and I was telling him people's names on them... I came across one and started reading... one couple had lost FIVE children. FIVE. I know it was the early 1900's and that was more common, but honestly, I'm sure that mother's heart broke just like mine did. I can't imagine burying five children. Another thing that got me was how if they were stillborn they didn't name them. That fact just really bothered me. I guess it was just common then... but I can't imagine just giving birth and then pretending it didn't really happen. Anyway, after we left there we went to my Papaw Ed's for lunch with some family. My Uncle (my mom's brother) has been working in PA a lot this past year so we haven't spent a whole lot of time with him so it was nice to hang out and visit with him. We got home and took a nap, which was much needed. I faired pretty well on feeling okay at least until we got home. We were just around the house last night thankfully.

Today our church was cancelled b/c of Anson Wagler's funeral. My heart really goes out to that sweet sweet family. Ryan went golfing w/ Rich Yoder and a couple guys this morning. B and I slept in and then just hung out most of the day. We went to my parents for awhile and then we all went into China Wok to eat supper. Probably not a good idea, Chinese doesn't settle well on a nauseated tummy! My Grandma is home from rehab for her knee so she got to go with us too. We're home now and I'm getting ready to hit the sack... ya know, go to bed! Tomorrow morning I have my appointment with the perinataloist. Ryan is going with me. My appointment is at 9 our time, they said to allow 2 hours. I don't think our appointment will take that long since it's mainly just a consult on the "what ifs", not a whole lot to check out right now. I'll let ya'll know how it goes and what he says. I hope he is nice. I'm glad Ryan is going along for this appointment. I'm not sure if I'll be getting and ultrasound or not. When they called to set up the appt. they said I would, but at my last appt. w/ Dr. R she seemed to think it was unneccessary at this point, so I guess we'll see. I wouldn't mind to see the little bean on the big screen again. I bet he/she has grown a lot in the past couple of weeks!