Wedding Weekend, First Soccer Game, and Peace

Friday night before the rehersal :)
Of course he had to make a mean one too!

Yah, I don't think either one was happy I was taking pictures already!

Standing up with the his "cowboy friends" Brandon and Roman.

After the rehersal it started storming on the way to the dinner. We were starving and it was pretty late (already 9pm!). The food was delicious though. We went to McKinley's Orchard. When we pulled up there was a rainbow :) It actually was a double rainbow and the bottom one kept getting brighter- the brightest rainbow I've ever seen!

not a great picture

We didn't get home until after 11pm and had to be up bright and early for B's first soccer game. All I have to say about that is... HILARIOUS! We're def. taking the video camera this week! It was really chilly Sat. morning too!
he really can kick the ball!

he's such a goof--- winking :)

and thumbs up too... :)

he was concentrating so hard on running fast he ran right into the back of his team mate! :) I was actually just taking his picture running down the field and somehow caught this on camera!

After the game we had to rush home and all take showers and get our clothes on and rush to Vincennes for the wedding pictures to start! We were very pushed for time, but we made it! Brycen was such a good boy all day!

B and momma before the wedding

B w/ all the guys and the beautiful bride, Megan!

B watching Lilyan while they were taking other pictures. He is such great big brother material :)


B and Lilyan walking down the aisle! They did so good! Lilyan doesn't talk much, but everytime she sees Brycen she screams "BBBBBBBBBB" as loud as she can! It is so cute!

such a ham

standing up with the big boys during the wedding!

can't get much cuter than that :)
he held a cowboy hat while they did the dollar dance :)

We didn't get home until after 11 Saturday night either so we were very very tired! We went to church Sunday morning and thankfully the guest speaker was very loud, so he kept me awake ;) Sunday afternoon we just stayed home and lounged around... Sunday evening we went to my parents and I made meatballs for supper. We all ate too much and then sat outside and visited. A lot of the grooms' family and friends were here from TX and we got to get to know all of them so that was fun. Some didn't go back until Tuesday so it was nice to visit after the wedding too.

This week has been pretty slow with nothing on our agenda's... it has been nice though b/c Ryan has worked late every night. B's practice got cancelled on Tuesday and that was really the only thing we had going this week! Yesterday Amber Manor rehab (physical therapy) came out to our house and my grandma got on B's four wheeler with him and all the therapists got around them and they took pictures... it's going to be on a bill board in town! lol. She goes there for therapy on her knee that she had replaced. It should be fun to see B's face when he realizes it is him up there! I'm not sure when it will be done.

Today seems to be taking forever... probably b/c I woke up thinking it was Friday for some reason!

Oh yes, this story took place awhile back, but when I wrote about B being good big brother material it made me think of it... and I want to get it down on here before it gets lost in my bad memory! One evening we were talking about Andon and this new baby and I asked B if he knew what Andon was (I was wanting him to say "my brother") but anyway, he said, "yep, he's the sweetest baby ever!"... I about cried! I was afraid that maybe Andon wouldn't be very real to him, especially as time moved on, but it seems that that's not the case and that makes me so happy.

I debated about not putting this next thing on here... but something just kind of hit me yesterday. You ever have a "DUH" moment?? Lately, I don't want to say I've been "struggling" with this, but it's just been on my mind... I read a couple blogs on other parents who have lost babies (around the time we lost Andon) and some of those people just still seem so lost... never leave their houses, have lost their friends, etc etc... I kept wondering if there was something wrong with me... I know that everyone grieves differently, deals differently, etc... but ya know, there was just this voice in my head at times thinking there is something wrong with me... maybe I didn't love him enough, maybe I don't care enough, etc... okay, that's so the devil putting those thoughts in my head, b/c obviously I would love to have Andon here and I couldn't possibly love him anymore than I do... Well, yesterday, I heard a verse on tv... one that I've heard a hundred times before... Phil. 4:7 (NIV), "And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus." I have no idea why that verse hit me differently yesterday that any of the other hundreds of times I've heard it before, but it did. It was like my answer was right there the whole time... I've SOUGHT out the peaceful feeling I have. I've prayed to feel peace, I've prayed to be able to go on with life, and not forget Andon, but to live my life here and to live it for Jesus, I've prayed for peace... and God has granted me peace... peace that surpasses all understanding. No wonder I've been wondering about myself, I can't possibly understand the peace that God has given me... but I feel like now I can accept it as the gift it is and quit worrying that my feelings aren't "right". I feel like the Lord has blessed me with being able to be strong through Him. And I praise Him.