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My Papaw went home to be with Jesus this morning at a little before eight. I'm grieving b/c I miss him already (we were super close my whole life), but I'm celebrating for him because he is healthy now. He isn't suffering anymore... AND he gets to hold Andon for his first time :) . My heart pounds a little faster just thinking of that.

Last night I stood by my Papaw and held is hand and talked to him for over 30 minutes. I'm so glad I did. It hurt to stand there like that, but now I am sooo glad that I did. I got to hold his hand and I kissed his cheek goodbye and told him I loved him. I told him to go hold Andon for me.

I broke the news to Brycen. I was so nervous because we were getting ready for work/school and we were home... I really wanted Ryan to be there too, but I knew I had to tell him. I just said, "Brycen, Papaw Richard went to Heaven to be with Andon and to hold him." He started to pucker up and cry, but not too much. He got a little mad at me and told me to let him put his own shoes on... but then he wanted to go to daycare. I let him, only because I want him to be comfortable. I want him to be happy and if playing w/ his friends helps him, then thats fine with me... even though I wish I could just sit and hold him all day! On the way to daycare he said, "I'm going to go tell Joey (his bff at preschool) all about my Papaw Richard." Joey's mom just called me and said Brycen seemed happy when she dropped Joey off. That relieved me a little bit.

We are going to the funeral home at 2pm today to make the arrangements. Please pray for us. We Know he is better off, but it's still hard.